Had you considered there might be a switched off place inside you, where this part of you that you yearn for is meant to live ? As you put protection around a building, so you can creaete a welcome space for the missing within yourself. The Marriage of Spirit happens inside us. We are all facing our worst fears just now. Your path is a blessed one, as it forms beneath your feet, and you are a blessed being facing wholeness. Love and oneness to you.