You're welcome Rickie. You're not alone, though it can certainly feel that way. To begin meditating again, there are things you can try. First, ask yourself why you can't seem to meditate where you are. My mysticisms teacher taught us to meditate near construction sites! Not fun, and not easy, and I wouldn't necessarily recommend, but it can be done. ;) So, let yourself feel the why that doesn't let you meditate. Then, sit quietly or walk, and relax deeply into the love that you are. Feel it in your cells. Recall the feeling of that torrent of fire, of those light bubbles bursting inside you, and let yourself relax into what that created for you. Your body knows what to do. And, as far as helping others, the best any of us can do is to change ourselves, to model new ways of being. As we radiate peace and empowerment, others learn by observation and, sometimes, entrainment. Immersion is how the shift happens. One surrender at a time. One heart at a time. Before that, as you're experiencing, the shift hits the fan. ;) Be well.